I've heard this before, but never really thought it was true, that a house will miss its owners when they leave. I honestly am starting to believe that the only reason the house I grew up in is still standing is that my dad loved it. Now that he's gone its falling down around our ears. Its kind of spooky.
We knew there were some problems with the house even before dad went into the hospital, but it was all completely managable. He was going to fix it. And we never guessed they were quite as extensive as they are now.
It started with a couple of leaks. The upstairs toilette was leaking or something into the ceiling above the downstairs bathroom. Not too hard to fix, but it went on for a while because mom and I were at the hospital and didn't notice it. So now the upstairs bathroom's floor is sinking. Nothing too terrible, its not like its actually going to fall through, yet.
Then there is the weird spots in the middle of the house where the ceiling is just falling off. But there really isn't all that much of that.

Lastly, the piece de resistance, half of the ceiling in the kitchen fell off this morning. Not like the floor fell through and there's a hole... well actually, since its on a part of the house that doesn't have a second level, you can see through to daylight. The biggest problem is that the roofers haven't had time to come fix the places where the shingles had blown away in a winter storm.

I'm starting to think it might be time to buldoze and run, but I Know mom won't agree.

Its hard to say it, but I understand her timing. Its not hard to figure out that if you go after someone for child support who isn't making any money, then you're not going to get anything. So she waited until he got a real job. But trying to have a working relationship with him in regards to their daughter and going to a lawyer with out saying anything is just playing dirty. She could have waited for him to at least get one paycheck.
So Matt has to go to court. Her lawyer sent over paperwork today, I guess, because she wants child support. There is no issue with that. Its just that she should have said something. They could have possibly worked it out with out lawyers. Some people do do that. But I guess she feels like she's been scorned, as Matt wouldn't take her back last week, and hell hath no fury.....

I honestly don't think that its a terribly bad thing that they are going to court. She's not going to get everything she wants. Or at least I hope not. If I were Matt, and I"ll admit he doesn't really have the money for a good lawyer, but I would try to get my lawyer to request a psychiatric evaluation of Ginger. Since she's been psychotic for as long as I've heard of her. She needs help and that would help Matt not have to pay to never see his daughter.

Its also going to shoot her in the foot because if the court finds the way it normally does, she'll be stuck in Topeka. She won't be able to move away without appropriate court consent. And last I heard, she was planning to move in less than a year.

And what is my part in this? None. Just that Matt called to tell me about it. He sounds so hurt and he won't let me come over and give him a hug or anything. Why the hell did he call? Just to upset me? Probably not, and possibly he wouldn't have just told me to stay home if I had answered the phone when he first called. Silly me, taking a shower and all.

God I want to get that girl where it hurts, in the paycheck. In the fairest of all possible worlds, the court would find that she's not capable of giving Katlyn what she needs and causes an unhealthy environment, and then would award custody to Matt.... not that he really wants full custody, then she would have to pay child support.
Its not going to come out that way, and I really wouldn't ask that it did. He wouldn't be able to handle being a fulltime single dad, because he works nights as it is. He would have to put Katlyn in an allnight daycare, which doesn't exist. At least not here.

Alright, maybe I've gotten this off my chest now, but I think probably not.

I'm jealous. And I feel enormously guilty about feeling that way. Matt has very little freetime because of his two jobs, so most of what little free time he has goes to his daughter, which I understand. Doesn't mean that I have to be absolutely happy about it, but I'm not going to tell him that I'm jealous of that time. The time that gets me is that I do occasionally get to spend an evening with him its not just with him. And yet when I say something to him about the fact that the only time I get to see him I'm with his best friend too, he tells me that I get to see him more than anyone else does. Yea, only because I showed up before his best friend did and left after. But the majority of the time was spent with the both of them.
Thats not to say that I don't like his best friend. Hell, he's dating one of my closest friends, who happens to be in another state and will soon be moving to France. Its just that occasionally I would like to see Matt without the entourage.

I actually feel like going and getting my own entourage so he can see what it feels like... but again, one of my closest friends is in another state and the other is married... no help there.

So, if I don't want to drop him, which I don't, I guess I have to live with the best friend time.... I just have to keep it separated in Matt's mind that I'm not just another friend thats always around. Thats happened in too many relationships in the past.

Pssst: Megs, don't say anything to Kirk, I haven't and don't really want Matt to get mad at me.

I don't get it. Is it just a bad year? First I lost my horse, then my dad (which I'll admit is definately the biggest one) then one of my kittens. Now it looks like one of my other cats is about to go.
I woke up this morning and she was displaying some of the same symptoms that my kitten that died a month ago was displaying. Not only is it frightening, because it was incurable, but they're also rather gross. I got to wash everything in my bedroom this morning and clean up a lot of stuff.
Called the vet, but he was too busy to talk to me at the time, and couldn't get her in until tomarrow morning. The main problem is that when he did call back my mom talked to him. She tends to leave out major parts of the equation. Like she told him that the cat is peeing everywhere, but left out the fact that she's also throwing up. The first points to something minor, I don't know what the second point to.
GACK!

I can get into my email again, YEA!

I have just discovered my day of the year, and felt like this would be a good place to remind myself.
May 26th is Grey Day. Whoohoo!

This is quite annoying. I can't figure out what is wrong with my email account. All I know is that I can't get into it.
The server tells me that I've put in an incorrect password, please try again. I KNOW my damn password, but it doesn't work anymore. I wrote, using another email account, to the webmaster to tell them that I was having a problem on Friday... and I haven't heard back yet. I just want to get my email...probably so I can foreward it to another account and discontinue using the one that won't help me.
?ACK!!! I'm disconnected from the world, and it hurts!