I'm aparently not dealing with this as well as I thought I was. Its not as obvious as I would have guessed, but the loss of my dad is affecting my interpersonal relationships. I'm not entirely sure how to deal with people right now. And I'm kind of afraid that I'm going to lose the best guy I've ever met because of it. He thinks I'm dealing with everything that is going quite well, but isn't sure why I'm acting funny. I don't even think I noticed it until this morning. I Know he's not doing anything that would make him deserve me to distrust him, but thats what it feels like.

I really hope that he's understanding about this. If I can, I'm going to talk to him about it tonight, but he might be able to see his daughter tonight. For his sake, I really hope Ginger lets him. She's going to ruin that poor little girls life by telling her, right from the start, what a horrible man her dad is. Just because the little princess didn't get what she wanted. She thinks that because she got pregnant, he should be hers for the rest of his life. And at one point in time I would have agreed, I guess. But it would be worse for all of them if he was still with her, because she would be telling him that he's worthless and needs to sell out to support them. She makes him feel bad enough about himself with the little time he sees her and Catlyn, let alone if he was there all the time.

I wish I could do something to help him, but he won't take anyone's advice that he needs to enlist some legal aide. I think I'm going to research some past cases to see if I can convince him that he's going to forfeit all rights to his little girl if he waits too long. I also think that the fact that he was raised by a singe mother and isn't completely (if at all) sure who fathered him, is hindering him in trying to take some control away from a psychotic mother. I don't know, but research is about all I can do, even if he doesn't ever use it.

To that end I'm starting another blog.